Don't ask me to update bout CNY... I'm so shy to take pictures or camwhore in front of my parents and relatives. They'll kinda ask me to go look at the mirror or something.. Anyway, Happy CNY, whoever is reading. :-)

Err, so basically for the whole week, I went to Ipoh for 3 days, and Johor for 2 days...... And basically I'm on Facebook, like the whole day. Couldn't even bother about Ang Pau, have to answer the elder relatives so damn many questions, I rather not.

Anyway I was in Johor for the past two days then earlier today, my aunt in Kulai told me there's a premium outlet in Johor.

WTF. KL DON'T HAVE PREMIUM OUTLET. HAVE TO COME TO JOHOR ONLY GOT PREMIUM OUTLET. WAHH SO AMAZING LEH. My mom told me she went crazy when she was at the premium outlet in US.. I can't get crazy even if I wanted to because I don't have the money. :-(

 Saw a really nice bag from Michael Kors but it's selling for like RM1200 so fuck it. :-<

I only took a picture of Tommy Hilfiger because I'm retarded. ヽ(゜∇゜)ノ

I miss school. Dreadful three words that I never thought I'd say but... yeah, I kinda miss school, although I really don't like some teachers and I slept through so many classes and got fucked many times. Every morning, I still have something to look forward to. Moral class was fun, recess was fun, gossiping at the back of the class because Physics teacher doesn't care was fun, we even composed a traditional Chinese wedding song. Speaking of which, I cannot even remember how it sounds like already......

Most of my friends already went to college. ME, on the other hand..... well obviously. Been looking for jobs lately (well I didn't really looked for it, I only asked one shop, lol). Mom's event company haven't give me a reply, and I really need the money. Got a job offer from Da Louis (yes it's the only shop I asked), ironically a Korean accessories shop. Hahah. Well I'm not really officially working there yet, store supervisor just asked me to head over to Sunway's outlet to fill up an application form. I'm not really sure to be happy or what....... First, what if I have to work until late at night and my parents don't want to fetch me back because it's far and they have to pay the toll? Am I suppose to live at Sunway... :-| Then, the supervisor scared me by saying, "Oh, you have no work experience? I can tell you, it's pretty tiring one ah." Omg, okay, thanks for telling. :-|

Why the fark did I complain so much. Bet'cha wasn't reading the last two paragraphs...Ha. 

Uh well. It's already 12th of January. Just decided to make a new year resolution for myself..... I never make one for myself for the past 17 years so.. yeah, this year I... want to make one? Because making one makes me feel so happy lolololol like I got a target in life or something. 

Okay, hereeeeee goes.

1) I want to be an outstanding college student! 

I don't even know what the fuck am I talking about, I don't even know which fucking course to take yet.

2) Healthier and beautiful hair
You have no. fucking. idea. how much I hate my hair. Like it's all frizzy and it doesn't look good no matter how much products I've used on my hair. I permed my fucking hair THRICE. And it looks no different from my natural curl. Imagine all the money I wasted. I can make a video rant on my hair and it can be 3 hours long. Seriously.

3) Better relationship with family

....... I always talk back. I should stitch my stinky mouth.

4) Go on a student exchange programme to Italy
I REALLY WANT THIS! But I have so many problems like, my parents don't really like the idea of hosting foreign youths because I behaved like an ape (true), the exchange period would be about a month or so, it'll definitely clash with my college schedule! And the flight tickets..... why.

5) Learn how to make up?
Omg. Look at me and my female hormones bursting. Hahaha lol. Still, I think it's about time for me to learn about this skill... And all the money I need to buy make up products. Urban Decay Naked 2...

6) Many new dresses! New maxi dresses! New clothes! New shoes! New acessories! New wallet! Sunglasses! And a bikini...

Okay, I can't achieve this without money.... 

7) Clean up my room, then redesign it

Brace yourselves, here is a current picture of my room:

Which totally explains why this resolution is very important. Very.

8) Dye my hair

I remember posting on twitter: 'I'm gonna dye my hair as soon as I finish SPM. Fuck you, school rules." Fuck it, my hair's still black.

9) Sign with a modelling agency? I'll earn a lot....
OMG JUST FUCK THIS RESOLUTION.

10) Draw more
Rusty skills....

11) Have a trip with friends

....... They're probably busy, I shouldn't disturb. (;;___;;)

12) Iphone 4S & MacBook Pro

Parents laughing at the back. Probably stuck with this stupid Samsung phone and lousy shared computer forever. :-| I want my own private laptop! I need it for my college anyway (look I'm talking about college again when I have no fucking idea which one I'm entering lol)

13) Driving license
The only resolution I know I'm gonna achieve.... lol it's not even like I can drive whenever I want after I got my license, what's the rush?

14) Get a damn job

Okay lets face it. I really need the money. I'm gonna have to visit Da Louis this week... Have to start work a.s.a.p!

15) Many more coming dates with wj (^_^)

I know you're reading! ;-)

So.... 15 resolutions. I cannot think of anything else now..... When I first started having the idea of creating new year resolutions, I thought I'm gonna list 100 of them. Not that much after all B-)

Sometimes I wonder..

(´-`).。ｏO( Are there people out there who read my blog..? )

I went to the college I suspect I was going to attend next year for a Holiday Camp.

Turns out... It isn't the kind of school I really want to attend. I always tell myself, "Art is the only thing you can do, science is definitely not your thing!" So I made up my mind two years ago that The One Academy was my target, and illustration's the course. 

Not showing off but growing up, my drawing skills are indeed a bit better than everyone else's. Art teachers liked me. I grew very confident in my drawing skills too. Friends always asked for help when it comes to biology drawing (Karuna, okay. Even my biology teacher).But I went to the college the other day, I saw all the ex-students paintings and thought to myself, "Shit". I knew I can't compare, but to compare, mine belongs in the sewage. If I attend TOA, will I one day produce such amazing artworks too? I doubted so.

And then the camp. It was awkward to it's maximum. There's this drawing workshop where we kinda have to produce our own comic. I sucked at creating stories. Worst, while you're drawing, there's all these seniors looking at you, like a fucking hawk. I hate it when people watch me draw. When I draw, I need to be alone, just me and the air. Nobody else. To be thrown in this dumbfuck awkward situation, I just drew. There's this male senior... He just kept looking at my drawing. So... I passed up shit.

And then there's two more workshops... Forget about it. It was as awkward as the drawing workshop.

The thing I hate so much about camp is the people. I went to 2 camps, almost everybody in the camp were ignorant as fuck. This camp... Well, its filled with people who are seriously, obsessed with Japanese manga/anime. I mean, seriously, no offence, I like some of them too, but they just acted like they're one of the characters. Like acting all kawaii and stuff. I'm not sure if I can fit in to a crowd of people behaving like that, imagine a whole school. (Well I don't think everybody here is obsessed, just most of them I suppose.)

I'm confused. My family is not rich. My parents have to support my brother who is studying in Canada. I cannot simply make a choice, then don't feel like it and transfer to another course. My parents cannot afford it. If I take this course as my future, then it is. I can't change it. I have 4 months for myself to think about this... Is this what I really want? I have so many fucked up problems like I have this psychological problem that I just can't draw in public, I cannot deal with overly virtual behaving people and things like that. My dad keep asking me to be a doctor, well fuck no, I can't even study Biology properly, everytime I study that subject, I be trippin'. My mom suggests me to study about event organizing, under mass & communication. 

I'm thinking about that a lot... Should I take a risk, study art and when I graduate, I don't have the guarantee of even having a job? Or should I take the more mainstream mass comm, when I graduate, at least I know, job is guaranteed, and most probably its going to be very highly paid?

Art is what I thought I was best at for 17 years... Now my mind is just frozen. I doubt I will be very happy in that college, and being unhappy for the next three years is going to screw my fucking life.

I don't even know

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